my heart breaks.
these children, entrenched in poverty, yet i rarely see a little black face not accompanied by of grin of white.
honestly, tonight was huge in my walk for Christ. i thought when i came here i would be so filled with the Lord that i would be unable to run from Him. and i am unable, but the known presence of God was lacking. and it was the prayer request of all of my roommates as we gathered one night to pray for each other. where was our fire? our hearts break, no doubt, but Lord fill me with You was my constant prayer and falling short every time. what can i do for you Lord?
I spent much time in prayer against the enemy. i forced myself to my knees, Lord why is it so hard to do so? I am on mission for You, why is this not easy?
humility. selflessness. more He is asking.
tonight i was brought back. its not about bonding, its not even about serving these children, Lord, first it is about You. I am a servant to You. Guide me, teach me what it is to obey You.
Lord do what ever it is to bring glory to Your name.
forgive me.
tomorrow we serve porridge to a primary school near here.
the children our served one meal a week at the school by the EAC team, the rest of the week it is up to them to bring their lunch. apparently these children wait all week to see us and to be served the porridge.
porridge: flour, mill, sugar, water.
Lord, i know i will never be able to not take for granted the many blessings from You. so forgive me please, now and forever.
please pray for humility for myself and the team.
1 comment:
awesome that God is teaching you so much as you serve! Keep it up girl...He will strengthen you.
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