natasha and prossy

clive college is one in three of the secondary schools we visit every week. i was able to hear a little of the stories of two girls, natasha and prossy. 
very dear and so in love with Christ. 
we were discussing the topic of miracles in there lives.
again the topic of school dues and where the money comes from is explored.
its apparent God provides for these two. thank You.


surprisingly God has revealed something to me i was not expecting.
i am convinced more than ever that although i live in america, a land FILLED with abundance, we all still struggle.
they are different from those in africa but none the less they are still struggles and for each individual the magnitude of the issue in our hearts is not to be discounted as little. 
i originally came here holding many different expectations. 
they were plagued with pride. 
i assumed that my struggles were so small and there problems were so big.
but minimizing my problems is pride. 
its assuming that i don't suffer or because of where i live and the resources i have, i simply don't struggle really, that i can't afford to struggle with things. such pride it makes me laugh now. 
those close to me know i do have struggles, as we all do. 
emphasizing all.


and i sympathized with these two girls.
i was burdened with their problems.
and they sympathized with me,
and temporarily carried my burdens.

true love is God.
and i have been so grateful and humbled by Him allowing me to love here in 'action and in truth'. 
i guess its just hard to believe, the grace You have poured out on me.
i guess im just starting to see, how You are working in me.
it makes my head spin.


i love that in so many aspects, i have no idea how my God works.

Father, help us explore and lay our struggles and sins before You, whether seen as small to us, they are big to You, for they keep us from knowing You more and experiencing what You have for us. Amen.


i want as much of You as i can get in this life before i meet You face to face.